Mending vs. Patching

MMMMMMM...I'm Frustrated and need to write this all out so that i can process this information. Seeing the integrity/character of a person can either be awesome or awful depending on the person. Until now i always thought that a persons character is relatively easy to see however, i have recently discovered the grey area of individual characters. This would have been nice if the people who i have discovered that they aren't perfect weren't people that i anticipated as being perfect.

Gossip and having a admired integrity just don't match together. In fact, neither does making a rule that is different according to individuals. Why people can't just think logical and revert back to the source of their question is beyond me. Think before you talk... is what I'm saying really true or am i just hearing this information that has been told many times and changed as it has been retold? Who should you really be asking this question to? Before passing information onto another person think about why the next person needs to hear what you have to say or is it just a bunch of garbage passed from one ear to the next.

Decision making, what do i know about the situation, people involved or variables? How will my decision affect many other people? Most importantly i would be asking myself if the decision i make going to be affective in preventing that person as well as others to not make the same mistake? Fix the problem by replacing not by patching!!!

Change...why...do i have to?...Okay,Fine!

Too Much change has been a bit overwhelming lately. Why change has been pretty consistent in my life lately is beyond me. But the time has come where ... it can STOP PLEASE!!! Moving to a new home has been going very well however it is very busy and allows me to become very disorganized. Changing my preferences and not providing transportation for my father anymore has been a extremely emotionally hard change but i understand why i needed to do so. Saying good bye to friends from church who are moving forward with their lives is heart breaking however they're still around me in other ways... Thanks so much for the continued friendship! Loosing a friend/coworker due to relocation............you have no idea. She will be missed in so many ways that i wish someone could understand. In addition, let's just stir things up by loosing another coworker/friend at the same time. Oh great that will really help me to enjoy my job. I guess i am just frustrated with the fact that the supportive staff that i enjoy spending time with well there goes two ... how many much more change can i take. When is it going to stop? Finally, my cell phone just died so I'm looking forward to changing that as well but i will continue to function and make many phone calls to the people/friends who are still around and whose numbers I still have cause moving forward by pressing on is the only option left. Good Luck With That!